Life is so bored...
till I start bumming into forums..... www.ohgenki.com, caught my attention because of the Shout out box where people can live chat in the forum... at least you still can felt that your are alive, someone is talking to you and you are interating with someone, 'hoping' to expend your social circle, but the truth is all you want is to find means to waste your time away...its been 5 years since I stop going to MIRC.... I used to go to Mirc and spend many hours chatting non-stop to people that I hardly know who they are, where they from. Meet 2 of my boyfriends there... one which I was with for 4 years till the relationship has been a stand still, so the only routes we have is either to get married or break off. Since neither of us is at the marriage stage we broke off... along came my next bf which I know him also online together with my bf of 4 years.... told me all sort of crap of how much he had loved me since the day we knew each other... in the end its a bunch of bullshit... not only that broke my heart to million pieces....
Sometime I wonder why there is so many people online... spending hours chatting nonsence topics... I guess is...
1)loneliness- a desire to ensure yourself that you are still alive... and people can still know you exist... coz life is too bored to be talking to yourself.... to do things on your own...
2) Boredness- a desire to make yourself feel alive in the silence world of yours... creating a different personality that you wish you are... speaking out loud to people who do not know who you about your problems, in return to get console from them.
Conclusion: human being are just scared of loneliness and boredness....
Not only I have been bumming in forum... i find myself constantly hanging out at timbre... n getting myself drunk with my gfs.... for the first few time, I and unice was there early for dinner... and before I ever get to listen to timmy play, we are already high.... the last 2nd time i went with gabra, also went there for dinner, and only manage to hear timmy play one set and both of us already drunk.... finally last friday I get to hear Timmy play!!! Was there after the movie date with eunice, usually it will be pack if we don't reserve any seats... but thanks to eunice who insisted that we go there to try our luck... indeed we are lucky to have a table (the group that reserve did not turn up after 30min). 3 of us - me, xin n eunice drank 3 bottle!!! can die... nowsaday I tried not to get myself too drunk... coz if I'm too drunk its very hard to control my emotion... and I don't want to get to there either... prehaps thats what people say choose to be happy.... I choose not to surface my dark angel...
Sometime I wonder why there is so many people online... spending hours chatting nonsence topics... I guess is...
1)loneliness- a desire to ensure yourself that you are still alive... and people can still know you exist... coz life is too bored to be talking to yourself.... to do things on your own...
2) Boredness- a desire to make yourself feel alive in the silence world of yours... creating a different personality that you wish you are... speaking out loud to people who do not know who you about your problems, in return to get console from them.
Conclusion: human being are just scared of loneliness and boredness....
Not only I have been bumming in forum... i find myself constantly hanging out at timbre... n getting myself drunk with my gfs.... for the first few time, I and unice was there early for dinner... and before I ever get to listen to timmy play, we are already high.... the last 2nd time i went with gabra, also went there for dinner, and only manage to hear timmy play one set and both of us already drunk.... finally last friday I get to hear Timmy play!!! Was there after the movie date with eunice, usually it will be pack if we don't reserve any seats... but thanks to eunice who insisted that we go there to try our luck... indeed we are lucky to have a table (the group that reserve did not turn up after 30min). 3 of us - me, xin n eunice drank 3 bottle!!! can die... nowsaday I tried not to get myself too drunk... coz if I'm too drunk its very hard to control my emotion... and I don't want to get to there either... prehaps thats what people say choose to be happy.... I choose not to surface my dark angel...
posted by sheepz @ 9:10 PM
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